Dwayna's Dwindlings

I'll draw you something when I'm less artblocked. Promise.

This world is cold when you're alone and they ignore you,
But don't kill yourself...

... We'll do it for you!

You've got a friend. ^^

I need a new meme-thingy to fill up space. XD

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

All in all, creepily accurate.

I can has Birthday. ^^ 24. Holy mother of dog. XD

"Indifference is the strongest force in the universe. It makes everything it touches meaningless. Love and hate don’t stand a chance against it. It lets neglect and decay and monstrous injustice go unchecked. It doesn’t act, it allows. And that’s what gives it so much power." ~ Joan D. Vinge.

A couple of days ago, a conversation with a friend reminded me of some of the concepts from a favorite novel of mine, a sci-fi novel called "The Snow Queen", by Joan D. Vinge - and that made me want to re-read it, in the original English this time (as opposed to the Hebrew translation I own - or rather the family owns.)

My deities. Re-reading this thing made me realize again how much I love it. Now that i read it in English, a lot of the subtle dialect quirks on the different human cultures - especially on the Kharemoughi, who seemed to speak a lot more poetically in the Hebrew version and that's because they speak like god damn YODA in the original. XD

I find it amusing, the way that the novel focuses a lot more on the human cultures than anything else. Don't get me wrong, the story is pretty damn gripping on its own right, a lot of the characters - the main in particular - are exceptionally vivid - and has much to it that is fucking awesome - but Joan D. Vinge's forte is anthropology - and it shows. It certainly made the differences between the different human cultures more pronounced, which made the humans rather interesting from a civilization perspective - in many ways, they are the same old typical humans, only they find new ways of showing it - ways that certainly make them feel more real - I could SEE Humanity having civilizations like this. Made the worlds feel more alive.

One vague issue that I have with the novel is the descriptions of alien creatures - they are very scattered and though you can get images that are rather vague. While this gives my mind a good exercise, I would still love to know what the author pictured her own creations as looking... Hn. I'm weird that way.

I love this book, anyway. XD Need to pick the sequels up...

I took this one too. Some of the results were definitely accurate... Which makes me wonder, since I know the test this was based on and it tended to be an utter failure in predicting me. Huh.

Of course, some of this IS utter nonsense, but some of it isn't. >>

Name: Gad
Date: 12/10/2009
Colorgenics Number: 21573604

You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

Decided to pull up WinAmp this time for the full randomization experience.

1. Where do you live: Breach of Trust - Family
Yep, I live with my family alright. surprisingly accurate.

2. Describe your first love: System of a Down - Aerials
Life is a waterfall... we drink from the river then we turn around and put up our walls... ~

3. What is your favorite thing to do: System of a Down - Legend of Zelda
If this is some metaphor for how I love gaming, then yes, sure, why not. I also got ATLUS - Hari-Hara on after that, which is from Digital Devil Saga I think, so yeah XD

4. Describe your current love: Finger Eleven - Paralyzer
Considering I feel flustered enough around him not to tell him how I feel... accurate yet again.

5. What do you like to wear: Finger Eleven - Drag You Down
Umm... baggy clothes I'm guessing this means. Which is true, sometimes.

6. What is your challenge: Three Days Grace - Pain
Pain is my challenge... how cryptic and metaphorical. So true.

7. Who are your friends: Breach of Trust - Empty
I knew it D: But in all seriousness... I know better than you, WinAmp D<

8. Describe how you look: Finger Eleven - For the Ocean
... Yes... I totally look for the ocean. =P

9. What did you do last night: Three Days Grace - Over and Over
... >>;;;

10. What is your goal in life: Tony Goldmark - Sirius Black
To be a rugged thug accused of a murder I didn't commit. Or dead, take your pick. *rolls eyes*

11. What do you do when you’re angry: Three Days Grace - Overrated
You made it, you played it, your shit is overrated. ~

12. When do you have sex: Disturbed - Stupify
I don't get it, don't you think... ~

13. How do you want to die: Three Days Grace - Get Out Alive
Simple. I don't.

14. What do you say to your parents: Finger Eleven - Famous
Wait... I thought I had something to say... I will remember someday... ~

15. Where do you hang out: Finger Eleven - Other Light
In another light, apparently.

16. What do you think of society: Oakenfield - Save the Last Trance for Me
Yeah, I dunno either.

17. Describe your most recent heartbreak: Abandoned Pools - The Remedy
...

18. What is your excuse for everything: Garbage - I Think I'm Paranoid
This is sort of true in a way XD

19. What are your thoughts on a Friday evening: Theory of a Deadman - What You Deserve
Plotting revenge in some way, I guess.

20. What is your unanswered question about life: Rammstein - Du Riechts So Gut
Do you smell so good?

21. What is your favorite color: Rammstein - Tier
Herm. Brown for the Beast, or blood red for being a beast?

22. What is your advice to those less experienced: Finger Eleven - Thousand Mile Wish
... laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons... ~

23. What would you rather do right now: Billy Talent - This is How it Goes
Again. >>;;;

24. Describe your best friend: DJ Sammy - Heaven
... Through the good times and the bad, I'll be standing there by you... ~

25. What’s under your bed: Avantasia - Lost in Space
Either enough space to get lost in, or space that things have been lost in already. I'm going with the latter. >>; XD

26. What is your most prized possession: Espen Lind and Sissel - Where the Lost Ones Go
... My imagination?

27. Where will be your honeymoon: Finger Eleven - Stay and Drown
Considering the context of this song with the honeymoon statement... yeeeah >>;;;

28. What is on your to-do list: Three Days Grace - World So Cold
I should hope not. Doesn't need to be colder than it is.

29. Where would you rather be: Three Days Grace - Just Like You
I would rather be just like you! mwahahaha